Things Blow Up

Well, that was quick.

Or maybe it was slow.  The writing was on the wall a few weeks ago, I think.

There’s no good way to leave a guild. It is, at its heart, a rejection of what the guild is, and what it stands for. It is a rejection of the people who have worked hard to make the guild what it is. And that can sting even if an average person who’s been in the guild a couple weeks decides to try something else and move on.

I had been in Red Royal Trading for over a year now. I became an officer just over ten months ago. And as I have said several times, I was the senior most officer in the guild. If the guild master were to leave, I believed that she would have passed the guild to me. Whether that’s true or not, it’s a reflection of where I believe I stood in the guild.

I left the guild today.

There are maybe a billion reasons for it, but they boil down to one: I wasn’t having fun. There are three rules in Red Royal Trading, and rule 1 is to have fun. I was breaking that rule. The hows, the whys, the wheres, well, you can read this blog and figure that out.

I’ve written about our GM before. She’s a good person and like a good person has tried quite a bit to figure out what it was that was making me unhappy. I think this actually led to a vicious cycle; I sensed that some people were resenting me for this special treatment.  Today it all boiled over and I realized that I just had to end it. I was unhappy. This was making her unhappy, which was making a whole lot of people unhappy, all with one root cause. Me.

So I left the guild.

I don’t know what will happen going forward. I don’t know if I’ll be able to find a guild for Jana or Saxsy, whether I’ll be able to raid with either of them, or whether I’ll even be able to find some guild to RP with.  I think it’s safe to say that a lot of RP relationships just came crashing down this evening.

Raid relationships crashed down, too.

And, in all likelihood, friendships I didn’t deserve will too.

Goodbye, RRT.  We had some fun times. Let’s try to remember those.